being honest with myself today I know for a fact that I have been in a depression. it became very clear to me that I loved some things in the past that I just do not do anymore.I love to walk and now i stay in, I loved to read and now iI have books that I never pick up.if i could tell the truth right now i will just admit to letting life drain me of all of my happiness. unfortunately it has become normal for me to only think of the things I like and want but never actually do them. starting today as i am writing this I will commit to taking some real steps towards being happy again. I will walk! I will read!! I have life in me still and I cannot accept this level of defeat. here is a link for anyone who may be suffering from suicidal thoughts or depression.